Today is the anniversary of my Dad's passing away, in 2001. Although it was a time ago, it doesn't make it any easier to deal with.
As I type my Mum is on a train back home to Surrey from Devon, tonight she will be on her own, thinking of that night, my brother will be with his girlfriend, and I shall also be alone.
I am obviously feeling sad, who wouldn't? But you have to be able to control it, to get on and make the positive out of it.
This morning I trained a client, I gave the benefit of my training wisdom, positivity and determination for them to succeed. These are gifts that Dad gave me, whilst we were out running, or training in the gym, or playing squash together. So my Dad lives on, in me.
I had a fantastic weekend with my Mum, although she had to suffer 'grumpy Deborah' Thursday night as I was in agony from my recent tooth problems. Luckily, after another dentist visit Friday, some antibiotics and pain killers I became a much nicer person as we entered the weekend!
We collected my newest family member on Friday, Lulu and black and white long-haired cat. She looks as though she has a little Birman in her and she is currently asleep on the sofa next to me with one of those little cat grins on her face.
People have said I shouldn't have got another cat, I live near the main road, I have 3 dogs, but after Friar died the house has been missing that 'cat energy' some people will know what I mean, those that love cats. I wanted another independant stubborn female in the house, and I definitely got that in Lulu!
She's settling in really well now, and I know she is going to be a little cuddly consoller later this evening when I am home from training!
We also went to see Les Miserables at the Barn Cinema in Dartington on Saturday afternoon. It was awesome! Mum had already seen it, but loved it still the same the second time round.
Mum has a connection with that musical, and Dad, so I know it's all the more emotional to watch.
I had to dig out the tissues, but having emotional responses is human. I laugh as easily!
It was a great weekend.
The other new thing is my tee-totalness! I had decided it was going to happen after my birthday celebrations, so once my birthday was over, that was it, at least until after the Ultra-marathon anyway. And then reduced amounts!
I've always been a drinker, ever since I was 16 and going in the Castle pub in Reigate! You could in those days! I am also a very social person, and the 2 go hand in hand.
I am however not very good at moderation, so it's all or nothing.
My birthday was one of those 'all' occasions, and I'm still finding out what I got up to now! So now, it's nothing.
It's not all good though, as my running is suffering! Sunday mornings I always have a long run, I'm usually a little wibbly from wine or cider saturday night and just get on with it.
This week, however, I struggled with my run. My head was clear, and I felt every little bump in the road, my legs were tired, my lungs felt awful. Now, it could be that the infection I have had in my mouth and the antibiotics may have been the cause of this, and so I shall keep trying this week, I have a few runs planned, but I really didn't enjoy Sundays run at all!
I've noticed no difference in my body, or weight, or general feelings of well-being, but again, all of the last tee-total week I had the worst toothache ever and wasn't feeling good so it's hard to tell, but those of you that know me well, know that I do like a drink, so my body should respond accordingly!
We shall see as this week progresses. The only good thing about the antibiotics was that I couldn't drink even if I wanted to, so it all helped!
It's now under 2 weeks until the Beesands Ultra-marathon, Rob is coming down to Devon so we can run together, Team Funkanova's first event of the year! It's very exciting. I know it's going to be hard going, but the scenery itself will be worth it, and having Rob with me will be perfect!
I'm sure there will be a blog especially for this event, you know me!
If you can all make the most of your friends and family, enjoy your time with them, and make the most of your lives, because you just never know what will happen, have no regrets, make the most of your life and live it! That's why I'm only having a short break from the cider! I enjoy it too much!
Take care x
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